Winds of Change

I lost my job. What a strange statement – it’s not as though I misplaced it. Last week, my position was eliminated in an organization-wide downsizing that will help CARE deliver on it’s mission in an ever-changing economy. This has been a fascinating experience in a bruised ego, breathing into fear and finding joy.

I have loved my time at CARE. It’s mission and method for overcoming poverty is something I’ve held dear to my heart for 13 years, when I first discovered CARE as a bright eyed International Studies student at Pepperdine. Much of my career since then has been centered around the goal to work for CARE. These 4.5yrs of working for my dream organization have been a true blessing in every single way and I’m so grateful to have that desire fulfilled. CARE brought me to new lands, new ideas, new ways of thinking and most importantly, it brought me dear friends.

As I sat across from my supervisor and friend, I felt dumbfounded at the idea that I was being let go. In those first moments, I was slow to comprehend what was really happening. As it sunk in, I had the opportunity to practice my yoga in a very real way. It wasn’t easy, but I drew my energy towards my spine and remembered to breathe. Looking into the eyes of my friend, I felt compassion for her position; it is no fun delivering bad news.

In the days that followed, I felt some of those doubts that creep in under circumstances like this. Regardless of the kindness and assurances of my supervisor and colleagues, I began running over my work at CARE like a person recently dumped, “did I disappoint them?” “could I have done something differently?” Each time my ego cropped up with self-doubts, I had the opportunity to practice yoga again. To breathe. To center. As fears for my family’s future tried to rise up in my heart, I did the same. Breathe. Center. Open the heart. Lean into fear.

It’s been a great experience. With a 5 month old baby and a mortgage and a very rural home, my little family faces many changes in the months ahead. Yogananda advised to live simply as a core principle to finding happiness. We are now in the position to do just that and we are excited and grateful for it.

The times they are changing. Day by day, I feel with more and more certainty that we are in the flow of Divine Grace. What a wonderful blessing it is to surrender to life’s flow and God’s plan – it is always better than the plan we come up with.


Published by Gita Matlock

Gita is a writer, speaker, and nonprofit professional. She earned a bachelors degree in international studies from Pepperdine University and a masters degree in nonprofit administration from the University of San Francisco. She has traveled extensively and held leadership positions with national and international nonprofit organizations. She was born, raised, and now resides with her husband and two children at Ananda Village, the first of eight cooperative Kriya Yoga communities founded by Swami Kriyananda, a direct disciple of Paramhansa Yogananda.

3 thoughts on “Winds of Change

  1. Your courage is very inspiring! I send thoughts of Blessings to you!I want to be like you when I grow up!!!! ;>))May you continue to experience Masters Courage and Contentment in Yoga!Love, Brindey

  2. you're bright and joyful energy will magnitize what is needed. Thank you for sharing your inspiring journey. Can't wait to see what's next!

  3. Hi Gita, just peaking in on your blog to see if there were any new baby pics. Sorry to hear about your job news. I get chills when I feel a confirmation of a truth, and your last line totally gave me chills. You are wise to know this truth. When one door closes, another opens. There is no other way. I'm excited for you and what this change will bring. Love you .

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